"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me." Psalm 51:10
So this morning in my Bible Study I walked away thinking a lot about how my life has been transformed. I was this ugly, manipulative, lying, drunken, sinful woman a few years ago. I will never forget the day I really decided to give my whole heart over to the Lord....it was the day I realized that if I really wanted to live God's will for my life, I was going to have to change EVERYTHING about my life. I was living in Arkansas and was so lost. I learned so much during that year. I learned that saying goodbye to people and things we love are sometimes the only way to get to where you were meant to be, I learned about hard work and how blessed I was to have a good job, I learned that sometimes home isn't always where you should be but it's always good to go back to recapture the good times....home is where we make it, I learned that without God in my life I just can't do it. My faith in God is what moved me back to Texas.. I made so many mistakes when I spent time in the world. I look back now and I have NO idea where my head was. I had lots of bad moments in life.....He loves me so much that He found a way to make good out of many bad situations. I learned a lot in the world but I gained wisdom in Him and I continue to learn and grow in Him.
Which brings me to where I am now and the transformations that have occurred. God is good and everything I have asked God for, is slowly being answered. I have always known what kind of woman I wanted to be but I was the TOTAL opposite of who I really wanted to be. So many years I went through life with this secret person inside my heart that was screaming to get out. Fear and insecurities wouldn't let her out. I was scared to be a forgiving woman....fearful that others would keep running all over me if I always forgave. So I held on to grudges and I would let others know that I still remembered. I was scared to be giving in fear that I would be taken advantage of. Scared that if I gave an inch they would take a mile. So, I was selfish and greedy. I was scared to not share "gossip" with others in fear that if I didn't have juicy information then why would anybody want to talk to me. So, I gossiped so that people would talk to me. Doesn't everybody want to talk to the girl who knows ALL and who will spill the beans? Yeah, I was that girl for so long! I took all of this to the Cross one day and asked God to transform my heart. Little by little He started working in me. I am still a work in progress but I have come SO far and I am so grateful for His love and mercy. I am BEYOND perfect and I'm thankful for that because that means I keep learning and growing.
Prayer is key! There is POWER in prayer! To pray is to change and to change is to grow! Prayer is grace and grace is of God. Every woman should strive to be graceful! God is a wonderful Father who longs to pour out transformation and blessings in our lives. All we have to do is just ask! A life transformed by God is a miracle and it is there waiting for each person! We are all His children and He wants to see us all be who we were meant to be. If we let Him, the Holy Spirit will do extraordinary work in us. All we need to do is ask and have FAITH!
Wanting to change who you are and the lifestyle you are living? Do it!! Be all that He wants you to be. Sitting on the fence between the world and your Christian walk trying to decide which path you would rather be on or worse, trying to walk both paths? Get off the fence and choose HIM.....I promise, the path on the right side of that fence you have found comfort on is AMAZING!!!! There are still ups and downs but the view is so much more beautiful and peaceful on this path. Sure we still come across bad storms but they are always followed by the sun.....and the grass on this side, well it keeps looking greener. You start to enjoy your life and no longer look on the other side and think their grass is greener. You become thankful for where you are because you have faith that God has you there for His ultimate plan and there is comfort in that. Make a decision today..... I promise, you won't regret it and He won't turn you away.