Friday, January 29, 2016
We can only receive freedom when we can take that deep breath in and release it and then say, "ok Jesus, it's all Yours. All of the broken pieces, all of the hurt, all of the uncertainty, and all of my hopes and dreams are Yours." It is only when we can surrender that He can take our broken pieces and make us whole again.
I don't have the answers to why we miscarried and that's ok. I don't feel completely whole right now and that's ok. I don't understand half of the emotions I go through on a day to day basis but that's ok too. It's ok because where I might not know, He does and He wants me to just BE. Even in my prayer time, He just wants me to BE. He wants me to just be with Him in the silence. He doesn't need me to grow or feel whole again right this second, He just needs me to be with Him in this season. He placed me here and I have to trust Him.
I'm so thankful that His beauty radiates more when we can see His face in the painful moments.
Friday, January 22, 2016
Sunday, January 17, 2016
Saturday, January 16, 2016
"Though joy is an amazing thing that expresses our trust in The Lord, sometimes our joy is hindered by cynicism. If we are not spending time with God daily through prayer, reading the Bible, or ministering to others, we get caught up in our own world and looking out for only ourselves. When bad things happen to us, we will quickly find a way to complain about it and over time we become cynical.
Think about it, when you are around someone who is joyful, they can impact you and literally change your day. Equally so, when you are around someone who is negative, they can have the same impact and crush your attitude for the rest of the day. It’s crazy to think of just how big of an impact we have on others.
As followers of Jesus, we have every reason in the world to be joyful. If we are being cynical at any time, we are not trusting Him and have forgotten about our first love. Be encouraged to continue going deeper in your relationship with Christ or perhaps, to return to your first love, where you will be satisfied with joy."
I am so thankful for a husband who sometimes knows me better than I know myself. I have had a hard time sleeping, being alone (mainly away from the hubby), and I have even had a hard time going into deep prayer. Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry at God at all. Recently, when I have prayed to my Heavenly Father, my heart hast felt more grief than I can bear. How can I cry to Him when He lost His Son for me? I felt selfish to cry to Him even though I know He knows my pain and He is a good good Dad and would never be mad at me for grieving! So, I have kept my prayers over the past two weeks "The Lord's Prayer" so that I could still keep my line of communication open with Him, I mean He is my best friend. I still feel that need to talk to Him all of the time!
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Friday, January 1, 2016
Aside from learning how to balance the married life and an awesome new job....I learned a very powerful and life changing lesson! I learned that not everybody in your life is your cheerleader. I learned that who I associate with matters. I learned that loving yourself sometimes means loving certain people from a distance.
If you associate with negative people, you too will be negative. If you associate with hot heads, you too will be a hot head. If you associate with gossipers, you will gossip. If you associate with "haters", you will be a "hater".
Towards the end of 2014, I was preparing for marriage. During that preparation, I made a promise to myself that I would love my husband and my marriage enough to no longer surround myself around those who's "love" was confusing or painful. I didn't want to bring that rejection or hate from others into my new marriage or my new home. I wanted to surround myself and my marriage around people who truly loved and supported us and those who inspired and encouraged us! This was a painful thing to do and experience but the rewards have been amazing!
God has honored the decision of putting my husband and marriage first and wanting only healthy relationships in our lives! It is BIBLICAL to be mindful of our associations and to also FLEE from things or people that might help us stumble!
It isn't selfish to want better for your life. It is WISE to be selective and to know who should be loved from a distance. Thank you God for all you have done for my husband and me! I will take these painful lessons and continue to grow in YOUR goodness and to focus on the relationships YOU want in my life!!!
I encourage anybody who is struggling with letting people go that hurt you, reject you, disrespect you, or people who say they love you but act as if they hate you to cling to what is good and cling to GOD! Letting go of people you love is hard but once you are free, you are FREE. NOTHING is wrong with loving hurtful people from a distance! Let 2016 be the year that you associate with positive, God fearing, loving, and kind people! Let 2016 be the year you are set free from painful or destructive relationships and cling to God! He is the One who can set you free and show you REAL love!
Happy New Year readers! May this be the year that all of your dreams come true!!