"Eliminate unhealthy relationships and focus on healthy ones. Honestly consider the value of each of your current relationships. Pray for the wisdom to determine which people in your life right now either are or aren’t worthy of your trust, time, and energy. Ask yourself who influences your life in positive ways, as well as who impacts it in negative ways. Let go of unhealthy relationships and focus only on people with whom you truly have safe and positive relationships. From now on, choose to invest only in relationships in which you can participate in a healthy flow of mutual commitment and contribution." - Crosswalk
I can't explain to you how much this solidified some of the things I had been praying about since I returned home from Texas. Something about my trip to Texas completely changed my heart, my spirit and my mind. I feel peaceful and enlightened and have walked with a renewed hope. God is SO AMAZING how He brings everything to the forefront and how He orchestrates it all to work out for our good. He DOES MAKE BEAUTY OUT OF ASHES!!!! Thank You Jesus!
With that being said, one of the things he has been working in my heart about is, my ability to let anybody and everybody into my close circle. I continue to chase the people who reject me, I trust too easily, I forgive without allowing wisdom to guide the relationship after forgiveness and I support anybody and everybody and their dreams without asking myself if I need to support at close range or step away and support from a distance (might not make sense written out but it does in my head haha).
The next few days, I will be elaborating on each of these components because I think it's important for us to share our experiences with one another. If somebody has or is going through what I have, then maybe I can help and vice versa! I want to share what God has moved in me over the past couple of weeks and why these things can be dangerous to us emotionally, physically and most of all spiritually!
I ALLOW ANYBODY AND EVERYBODY INTO MY CLOSE CIRCLE
Why would we do this y'all? There are so many scriptures that support us NOT doing this yet Christians tend to do this more often than not because it is ingrained in our minds that we are to love and be kind (which we should). However, we can love and be kind without allowing people into our closest most inner thoughts. We must be "choosy" about who we allow into those most precious places in the deepest most purest core of our inner being. The enemy is lurking and is capable of using anybody to speak death into our dreams and into our lives and family's lives (even if it's not directly to us). Yes, we are to love but I've said it time and time before, sometimes loving from a distance is a more precious and sacred love because it allows us to separate ourselves from the pain of rejection and hurt and allows us to give those emotions to God and move on. Separation isn't always a bad thing and God sometimes needs that separation between two people in order to work.
Even Jesus had an inner circle!
I was literally sharing my most inner thoughts, my precious heart, my complete trust and parts of my life that are sacred with people who have shown me time and time again that they don't really care about a relationship with me. So, in essence, I was allowing myself to be rejected over and over again..... and over and over again....and over....(you get the picture). Which brings me to my first lesson:
I Continued to Chase the People Who Rejected Me
“If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you." Josh 15:18
Ugh, rejection. One of the ugliest feelings in the world. It's one that Jesus must have felt over and over again. It hurts my heart to think about the pain he must of endured, all for me....all for us! What's amazing though is the beauty that God makes out of rejection.
"As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious,"
1 Peter 2:4
"The stone that the builders rejected has become the cornerstone." Psalm 118:22
For me, that beauty is that rejection has brought me into a deeper relationship with Him. A relationship that's beauty is beyond any earthly friendship that I can ever imagine. The beauty rejection has done for me is that it helped me to understand that not everybody is meant to be in my life or me in theirs......and THAT IS OK! That is how it is supposed to be. There are only a select few people that God wants in our deepest part of us and rejection allows Him to weed out the ones who are not supposed to be in there. So, for the first time ever, I am SO thankful for REJECTION!!!! I know it's so cliche' but it's so true, "Rejection is protection!" So, at some point, we HAVE TO STOP chasing that in which He is trying to separate us from. We have to STOP chasing the rejection. How crazy is it that sometimes we CHASE the rejection? Well, it stops today! I hope you will join me!
Every time I think about rejection, I think about the story of Leah and Rachel and what rejection did in their story. Have you ever just felt so left out, so unchosen, so rejected? I have. Up until recently, I felt that day in and day out. I can truly say that God has finally delivered me from the past rejections I have encountered. I have found forgiveness, peace, love and the strength and courage to let go. I had to let go of the hurt feelings and most of all I had to let go of the chase.
Stay tuned for "I Trusted Too Easily".....